Confused

My week is all messed up. No, I am not complaining just explaining if you talk to me and I am not really oriented.

I was off all weekend, sleeping nights. Although I practically was asleep at  3pm Saturday at the Renaissance Festival!

Had to work Monday night, so nap time from 12-5 pm. I love to sleep.

Worked from 6:45 PM to 7:15 then taught a class til 9 AM. Back home to nap from 1-5 then up for the night and back to bed at 1 AM til 6 AM.

Wednesday, back to work to give chemo at 8:30 AM but got held up and ended up staying until 6 PM. Was SUPPOSED to work at 7PM but luckily got a replacement to cover me and got to go home to sleep.

Thursday back to work at 7:30 AM for a meeting then taught another class, completed my biometric profile for open enrollment and am now back at home.

I am headed to bed at noon and back to work at 6:30 PM.

Friday will be interesting as I finish work at 7:15 AM then am going shopping for the Toys for Tots program, then back to the hospital for the ICARE awards luncheon at 11:30 AM. I then plan to come home nap for an hour then go get Amy for her cello lesson at 2:30 PM. Back home for dinner then off the the church for the Junior High Dance from 6:30 PM-10:00 PM. Sleep a bit then do grocery shopping Saturday AM and down to bed for work Saturday night.

Are you confused yet?  How about feeling tired?

Yes, I love my job, and yes, I love working nights.

p.s. I also love my sleep.

Orch('ork') Dorks

I've gotta' couple of them - Orch Dorks.

Had their first concert last night. Amy in her formal gown and Colt in a tuxedo. Weird.

The orchestra parent association (OPA) sent out an e-mail at 12:30 pm asking for food donations to be brought up at 6:30 pm. Didn't happen in my world as I just looked at my e-mail this morning.

And they had plenty of snacks, enough for even the band students who tromped through after the concert when they finished marching band practice.

Colt was asking to wear his tuxedo to the Homecoming dance.

I said "No", often and repeatedly.

When he found out they omitted him from the program - he asked again.

Then I said....

"No"

Yup, he is an orch dork of the highest magnitude. And I still love him!

Day and Night

First of all, an apology to my Mom, I don't know when is the best time to get a hold of me. Sorry.

I work nights, 7p-7a.

This means at any given moment, you could find me sleeping.

I love to sleep. It restores me and keeps me sane.

I also love to be a nurse. It restores me and keeps me sane.

But working nights, I nap from 1-5p on those days that I was off the night before. On days I worked the night before, the bed and I have a set rendezvous from 9 am to 5 pm. Then if I worked and am off work, I come home and snuggle into the bed from 9 am -1 pm or maybe 2 pm or sometimes 3 pm ( all depends on how exhausted I am).

AND things a going to get even more crazy as I begin teaching CCE at 3:30 pm on Sunday. Think of getting up at 3:30 am to go teach Sunday school.

But don't feel sorry for me or anything, I love what my life is and am so blessed to have a job I truly love.

I just wanted to let you all know - I could be sleeping. .  .or awake. You just never know.

Wanting Independence

I don't know why but I'm feeling a little cramped at the moment. Well maybe cramped isn't the best word. I guess I just feel kind of.... stuck? Here's how I can best explain it: I'm happier at school than I am at home. When I'm home, I want to be alone in a big room where I can run around, screaming my head off or singing at the top of my lungs to my favorite songs. I often dream of ice skating alone or with a guy to a random song depending on my mood.

So that makes me remember the one weekend I was completely alone here at home while Mom, Dad, and Colt were at a retreat. I was completely self sufficient for and entire two and a half days. I liked not being told what to do. The reason I think I cleaned up after myself and got everything done is because I knew it pertained to me. Not so much that Mom would kill me if I didn't, but because it was just an obligation, I suppose. I didn't feel guilty if I didn't do something and I didn't feel "responsible" if I did do something. Does that make sense??

So at the moment, I just wanna move into a big space with all my music and school work and other supplies and just be alone for a while, away from family. I'm not sad, I've just got this overwhelming urge to just run off to a random open space with a friend and just rock out or be completely silent.

Just for right now. :)

First Week of School :)

My schedule didn't change, but I got my teachers :D

1st period: English III AP. Mrs. Rasmussen (Ms. Raz). I REALLY like her. She's not too strict or too lax; just right :) I have like 36 people in that class so we are VERY cramped for space. I set in the very back corner of the class (for right now, cuz I don't know if she's gonna move us) and I love it. Right now we are prepping for writing a major essay/research paper thingy about the American Dream. Anyone up for an interview?? :P Seriously call me if you want your opinions heard. In class, we're watching Miracle (that hockey movie) and I'm loving it. I'm in there with Matt, Phillip and Kristen :)

2nd period: Scholars. Here's the interesting thing: My teacher switches everyday. One day I'm with Ms. Raz (don't even have to move classes) and the next I have Mrs. Clifton. So far, we haven't really done anything major, just vocab. and a little practice math test. Again, I like Ms. Raz. Mrs. Clifton is really awesome... more to come :) Kristen (from my first period), Guillermo, Rene (teehee), Margaret, Taha, and Lindsay (she's going out with Davis).

3rd period: US History AP/Dual Credit. Mrs. Hoover. She's fricking amazing and hilarious to the nth degree :) Not to mention a great teacher. She really gets us thinking. We've had to read/take notes on a chapter pretty much every two nights and have a quiz on it the next day. The first two quizzes are group quizzes so we can get an idea of what to expect. Monday will be the first individual quiz on Chapter 3. I really like the textbook. It's not a super challenging read; it almost reads like a regular book. And it's smaller than a normal textbook, so I don't have to carry around this HUGE book (although for it's size, its HUGE; it weighs about 5 pounds). Guillermo and Alexis are in it with me.

4th period: Precalculus K. Mrs. Clifton (told you more to come :)) She's tiny and skinny and she's got a really interesting way of teaching. She's one of those teachers that doesn't just know one way to solve a problem (like Mrs. Rodriguez from last year); she can teach you like seven different ways. She's really quirky and blunt and she doesn't care. We've done distance formula and midpoint and functions so far, which is easy-peasy stuff. Phillip, Casey, and Matt are in that class with me.

5th period: Biology AP. Mrs. Gill. She's really sarcastic and blunt and funny and weird and really enthusiastic about what she teaches. I really like her. She kinda looks like Mrs. Piggy which is so ironic to know because it looks like pink threw up in her room. Oh, and there's a little piggy bank that gives you a pencil for a quarter. :D just funny. We did a Pillbug (Roley-Poley) lab on thursday and the paperwork is due on Friday. I only know one girl in there and she sits on the other side of the room and I don't know her that well.

Lunch: I have the last lunch with Kim, Arryn (like Erin), Sarah and a few other people. I don't have Ashley (my bestie) in anything, not even lunch which makes me sad, but I talk to her through Kim, so it's all good :)

6th period: CHAMBER Orchestra :D :D :D. Mrs. Robicheaux (Ms. Ro). I really like it so far because it's challenging and not boring. And I really feel like a huge family with all those people unlike last year where it was like I only felt kin to a few people. I have it with Arryn, Gabriel, Jacob, An... gosh just so many awesome people in there that I'm proud to call my second family :)

7th period: Physics K. Ms. Raju (R-agh-shoo). She's very strict and very young. She has an INCREDIBLY thick Indian (like the country) accent and she can't say my name correctly, even though there's another Amy in the class and I've corrected her about five times. So far, it's been really easy. We've done one lab. I've heard from other people though that you have to read the textbook because she doesn't really teach anything. So it should be like last year in Chemistry: self-taught. I think I can do it.

Dad's gotten a little better. But I think he's just really lonely despite the fact that Mom's been home the past week basically. I feel for him, but I'm just tired of it at the same time. I'm trying my hardest not to piss him off or be short with him but I'm afraid I'm just going to snap one of these days. :(

That's about it. I'll try and hound Colt to give you a day in his shoes, but I'm not making any promises :)

Love you guys :)

P.S. Thanks for the advice about Rene. I'm just working on being friends right now and maybe working up the guts to ask him to go to homecoming with me (JUST AS FRIENDS, I SWEAR!!). If he says yes, and something happens, then we'll see.... :)

Crap on a Cracker!

I called this morning to find out what I needed to bring in to get my dysfunctional computer fixed by the Geek Squad. Just the tower.

The lame person at Best Buy then explains to me, like I am an idiot, that the information is incorrect. They need to recovery discs that came with the unit when I purchased it. And, did I back up the computer? Because if and when they do the recovery, it will wipe all the files and data I have on the unit.

Well, no, your people did not tell me THAT when I called this morning! Oh, and if I want they will back up the data files for $150 for me on a separate hard drive that runs $99. How about that?

NO, I can back up my files. All I want is for you to restore my ability to use Internet Explorer on a Vista System and block any further downloads to upgrade to IE8.

I walked out with the unit in hand.

Guess what I have been doing all night. Transferring files to backup drives offline of this stupid machine.

Photos to the Kodak gallery for off site storage. Music files are gone - too much data to put on a USB or disc. Everything else on a flash drive.

Biggest issues is the Outlook Email files. I have no idea how to manage saving those to a storage file elsewhere. Any suggestions??

Momma, Don't Let Your Babies Grow Up....

I'm off to buy the stuff that the kids need for school. Didn't know what was needed until they got home from school yesterday.  Going now while the little monsters are still in school. Okay, Big Monsters.
Gotta turn in my computer for some repairs - I have Vista and it does not like Internet Explorer so I had switched to Mozilla FireFox but now the computer has decided it does not like FireFox either. So I am taking it to get 'fixed'.
Also on the prowl for some kitty behavior modification agents. Ezzie (esmeralda also known as evil black kitty) keeps marking someone's bed with urine - Gross - no it is not my bed - Thank Heavens!
And need to get my vehicle registration tags. New fridge (6 months old )needs a new water filter.
Need a new headlight for the CRV.
And finally back home to greet the monsters.
School just keeps getting more and more expensive. We have spent over $200 on school stuff - fees, club dues, laptop, yearbooks, lunch fees, and it just keeps coming.
I need to work more to pay for it all!